2001-09-24 - 10:30 a.m.

ramble on

don't really have much to say. but i need to get that last entry off my main page.

sheesh. drama queen much?

yesterday i did pretty much nothing.

and it was everything i dreamed it could be.

i actually did work on BigSis' site some, and finally got some updates posted to the server. but i'm having a big-time computer meltdown right now, and i can't get much accomplished till i get that sorted out.

so i played playstation to take my mind off of the work i should have been doing.

and learned to play "you're gonna make me lonesome when you go". good song. i'm kind of surprised at how quickly i picked it up. a couple of years ago i would have spent a week getting it down, instead of an hour. now if i can just learn the harp part.

talked to Dad on the phone. no really, we actually *talked*. i was amazed. he listened to what i had to say, and seemed to understand that i was speaking. he was much more involved than i've known him to be for a long, long time. maybe the whole terror thing got him to thinking, or something.

i'm thinking about cancelling my trip to Thailand. i'm not sure i feel comfortable travelling in that area of the world (or hell, that whole *hemisphere*) at the moment. i have tons of guilt and angst about not being able to see HymenopteraGirl. but then i think about the stark lack of emails from her. and i'm just a bundle of weirdness and unresolved emotion, and on the whole i think i may just feel more comfortable, in more than one way, if i didn't go.

and i'm rambling, rambling, rambling now.

and i owe some people email, and i didn't send the promised picks to my pen pal yet, and at some point.

maybe i should do some work.

but i got up early this morning and worked out. and maybe this week, unlike last week, having done that on a monday, i won't take the rest of the week off from the gym. maybe i'll actually get my sorry ass up tomorrow and work out again.

i'll keep ya posted.

cause i know you're all just dying to know.