2001-08-18 - 12:10 a.m.
K's B-day
just got back from K's b-day celebration. she pretty much avoided me all night.
as expected i enjoyed it because of the presence of jo3, Ng, and ChefsKey.
at one point i was talking to ChefsKey, and K was to my right, talking to someone else about some guy. i kept over-hearing little phrases about making out and sex and all sorts of things i really, *really* didn't want to hear. and ChefsKey was being quiet and i wanted him to be shouting to drown it out, and i was trying not to let on what i was feeling.
Ng wants me to throw a dinner party, which i may to Labor Day weekend. she kept telling me i need to throw stuff away, because i was saying how much stuff i have. she can be somewhat overwhelming at times.
i'm tired, and i want to stop feeling depressed.
jo3 said tonight that i need some kind of life-changing event. i think he's right. i need something to take me in a new direction, some kind of signpost that i can point to and say "there. that's when it all changed for me".
anyone have any suggestions?