2002-11-10 - 11:52 a.m.

Sometimes doing the right thing sucks ass.

Remember the staged reading of a musical I'm doing? Apparently I can't hack it as a vocalist, so I've been demoted to chorus position. Which sucks. I mean, the songs are incredibly demanding, and I was not hacking it, but I was willing to try. I was working my butt off getting them right. But I couldn't do it, so now I'll just be another schlep in the background.

And I soooooo wanted to tell them to just go to hell. Especially because scheduling conflicts with the musical are in part responsible for me losing the part in that play written by my friend. But it wouldn't have been the right thing to do. I made a commitment, and the right thing to do is to honor that commitment, and suck it up and be a big person. Sometimes doing the right thing sucks ass.

So in a couple of hours I've gone from two lead roles to one schlep role.

Into every life bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.

Fuck.